well definitely almost killed someone today in track for having him trip over
me and while everyone is saying “don’t worry he’s totally fine..” he posts a new status saying “in alot of pain” I FEEL SO GUILTY OH MY GOD

i play background music when in having an epiphany in the shower because it puts more meaning into it and also because i like to pretend im in an empowering movie (y)

have a damn good year.

dont worry about dieting and working out…. eat whatever you want and pig out

dont worry about changing who you are…. be yourself

have the time of your life and meet new people and have a good time. so what if we die? then you can say you had an amazing year and you’ll have something to remember when you’re dead ^.^

just remember, don’t waste your time being sad over someone/something that isn’t important anymore - because time flies and its no use wasting it

god I miss you. Get out of my head, my mind. I don’t even miss being your girlfriend, I just miss being your friend. And now you’re all popular and cool with your football friends and buddy buddy with “better” people and you’ve forgotten I ever existed in your life.. Looking back I realized how messed up I was but I never meant it to turn out like this. Strangers. It’s fate that hates me though because I’m always put in a situation that leads me back to you. We can be 2 feet away from each other but I don’t get a “hi” anymore. Your parents remember me but you don’t? They have the nerve to say hi… But you can’t. I’m not strong enough to watch you on the field. I’m so weak and you dont deserve my attention. But yet you got it. You’ll have it for a while too. And I hate myself for giving it to you….

i

am

so

sick and tired

of the same

routine

over, and over, and over, and over.

school is coming up so soon… Yet I’m not stable enough to go throughout a whole day without wanting to die.. I feel so weak ALL THE TIME. is it my sleeping pattern? my health? I’ve never been scared like this… 3 days to catch up on sleep.. 3 days to relax before a wave of stress overcomes my life… School school school.. SAT prep.. Honor roll, I don’t want to think about it.. But it’s all that has been running through my mind lately. I haven’t felt alive in a while.. I’m weak and tired and stressed and confused and I don’t even know what I want.. Maybe… To run away? To escape? But to where? I have no time.. What am I going to do with myself?